Severe anxiety symptoms are different for everyone

When I come across people who say your anxiety can’t be that bad or its not as bad as mine.. please do not judge how I’m dealing with my mind… like I even want to be in competition with my mental health. Life is bad enough with people judging us all the time. I try to hide myself away from people because the thing is some people are always comparing themselves and this is a behaviour learnt by bad habit. I do not wish to compare my mental conditions to another’s.  My traumas are my personal experiences and my thoughts are my personal feelings do you no how long it took for me to openly admit that I suffer with a mental health condition.  Do you no how long it took me to come to terms with this.. do you no how much I rejected myself and hated myself for suffering with anxiety and depression. No. So next time you simply guess how much my anxiety affects me please bear in mind that my anxiety is different from yours. My anxiety doesn’t just affect my mind it’s affects my whole body geographically I can itch my skin obsessively or my stomach will feel like it’s been turned upside down and I have to stay near the toilet. My face doesn’t look the same my eyes are puffy and red my mouth is dry.. my hands are weak and shaking and I’m sweating continuously… them physical symptoms are the things I try to hide. My mind however tryst to push through it every single day and that is what I call strength… overcoming obstacles that arise gives me a great feeling. You see the mind is a very delicate place and my anxiety can take me to places in my mind that I never knew could exist. So next time you assume my anxiety isn’t too bad please think about invisible illness… just because I portray myself to be fine and comfortable that doesn’t mean I’m not suffering deep down. You see people with mental health conditions get good at hiding their suffering. I just want people to know that talking to each other without competing or assuming will bring us together and help us. Don’t worry about people who judge you I just hope for their own sake they never have to deal with their very own demons how I have. 

Life is my journey and living is my path.

Outside

I got dressed yesterday

But that doesn’t mean I want to go out today

I went out yesterday

But that doesn’t mean I want to go out today

I had fun yesterday

But that doesn’t mean I want to go out today

I had a laugh yesterday

But that doesn’t mean I want to go out today

I spoke to people yesterday

But that doesn’t mean I want to go put today

I enjoyed my company yesterday

But that doesn’t mean I want to go out today

Nothing went wrong yesterday

But that doesn’t mean I want to go out today

I did it yesterday I finally managed to fight my own thoughts

But that’s still doesn’t mean I want to go out today.

 

Living with anxiety is exhausting

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Looking through these eyes

I feel like crying again

Anxiety has me thinking everyone lies

It comes and it goes

Just like clouds in the skies

Some days are brighter than others

Then I’m like a beautiful whirlwind

And some clouds are darker than others

Then I’m like a volcano erupting

Sick of turning to medication

How do we cope without the meds

It’s really people who are no good for us

Need to get out of our heads

If you have nothing positive to say

Don’t speak just listen

Please keep your voice at bay..

I used to wear my heart on my sleeve

The People took my kindness for weakness

Now my hearts never nieve

Don’t look for perfection in me

Flaws and mistakes is what you will see

I’m taking time out now

It’s vital to focus on me.

Life is nothing but a journey.

 

 

 

First blog post

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This is my very first post, I have never done anything like this before but I think as a nation we can share our strengths and struggles with each other to help us overcome obstacles that arise in our life. This blog is about anxiety and depression and a little insight into the thoughts and feelings a person can go through from day to day, week by week, month after month, for many years.

As I walk through each day in this crazy world we live in I fight thoughts in my own mind,I have feelings of anxiety and negative thoughts just like anyone else does but I can’t just brush them off like others do (don’t no why) I do try to just forget about them and just go about my daily routines but I still struggle. I like to push myself to my limits, low self esteem has…

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Time out for you

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It’s ok to take time out of work to focus on your mental and physical health… If you do not keep your body healthy your mind will eventually be an unhealthy place. Everything you put in or do to your body has an effect on your mind… The mind is a very sensitised organ and even if you think you will never suffer with mental health issues believe me you will go through a feeling or aspect of your life where you feel exhausted all the time or numb you might feel sad or low… depending on how healthy your mind is controls how long you suffer with that feeling… Just take a moment to reflect on your life. You have been through an enormous amount of pain even though it hurts it made you stronger deep down! It made you see life is not to be taken for granted…

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Time out for you

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It’s ok to take time out of work to focus on your mental and physical health… If you do not keep your body healthy your mind will eventually be an unhealthy place. Everything you put in or do to your body has an effect on your mind… The mind is a very sensitised organ and even if you think you will never suffer with mental health issues believe me you will go through a feeling or aspect of your life where you feel exhausted all the time or numb you might feel sad or low… depending on how healthy your mind is controls how long you suffer with that feeling… Just take a moment to reflect on your life. You have been through an enormous amount of pain even though it hurts it made you stronger deep down! It made you see life is not to be taken for granted and life will teach you these things everyday and keep on teaching you these things. Look back at your best points in life and reflect on the positives.
‘A flower loses its beauty every winter, then it blooms back in the summer and it keeps coming back…’ – Claire Elizabeth.
Life is going to knock you down but it’s climbing back up that counts… never give up. You are blessed because you woke up today. Make it a good day on purpose. Open your eyes to learning a new way a new style a new dream. Blessings going out to everyone on here who shows me love and support we are all one and we will be stronger and better for our future. Reach out and help others around you to help themselves.

Claire Elizabeth

#mentalhealthawareness #positivelife

Dairy Milk is not good for you

So who’s been hiding the fact that cows are given hormones and antibiotics? Is there a link between disease and control in the United Kingdom as cows milk and other stuff have hidden agendas they are not in fact good for your health instead they can make you very ill. Since birth I have been intolerant to dairy products giving me a rash and making me sick. I know that’s not the case for all people and I’m not here to stop you drinking milk I just want to advise you on the bad stuff that comes from the cows. I live in the countryside and I see cows being treated in a bad way for example people walk them over a main busy road and hit them along the way to get to the destination faster to me that is animal abuse.. but hey I’m not here to safeguard cows either. I think the living conditions have an effect on the produce of cows also not just the hormones, the steroids or the antibiotics that they are pumping into them. For example the way they are excreting and then eating of the same grass and it’s not getting cleaned up they simply have to sit in their own pool of urine and poo. This is creating disease in the cows so they then pump antibiotics into them not worrying that it’s coming through the milk that humans consume daily. Does this have an effect on our antibiotics resistance ? Or am I thinking too deep ? The fact that we are getting antibiotics from milk and food sets our immune system up to fail. When we get an infection our bodies become resistant to the antibiotics because we are simply consuming them every day weather it be in meat or milk products. Any way my point is that cows are being ill treated and neglected they are being given hormone treatments to produce more cows products at a faster rate so this means the cows look more leaner and steak looks more fatter.

Not to mention the steroids that they are giving them imagine a human taking steroids over a long period of time to gain weight we say that it is just a build up of water.. which in a cows point of view is exactly the same so the meat isn’t actually getting bigger or tastier it’s getting pumped with water and then humans are getting poorly from the red meat. In fact studies show that red meat is not actually that good for you it can cause high blood pressure it can cause gout and other health conditions. Is this not a scam to make people more Ill because I can’t see the government changing the way milk is left with pus and blood in. They let them cover it up by bleaching the milk.

Years before I was born, im talking 1960s milk from cows was pure as people never had to rush the process they never had to give them antibiotics and they certainly looked after them well. I know how the milk has changed from being a thick creamy texture to a watery thin texture. I think this is something that needs to change and if it doesn’t change people are going to keep getting illness and diseases.

I personally drink oat milk now or soy milk as both are naturally sourced. I’m not advertising this I’m simply giving my alternative to cows milk as I think people need to find alternatives now before disease controls get out of hand well they are already as all these new cancers and new problems that arise with newborn children I actually think poisoned cows products are more of a health hazard than something that we need. It’s the total opposite they would say anything to make us buy it. Think about it next time you simply see a cow go over to it and just look around the field and read up on how much they become infected and affected by hormones or steroid treatments.

 

My blog

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Sometimes in life we go through bad experiences and they can either make or break you.

I am sharing this picture so people can see they are not alone in their suffering.

Life has taught me to be stronger everyday and think positive as sometimes negative thinking is something that we can’t help in a world full of trauma. We also must remember there is good in the world and that is what we must thrive off.

Here is my story in pictures.

#mentalhealthinpictures #anxiety #depression #upsanddowns #life